Firstly what;s right with my life.

La Corda D'oro is awesome. Emma is the sweetest friend ever and I still feel guilty that I didn't have enough for lunch. (You're getting two christmas presents). I have awesome songs on my mp3 player thanks to Emma. Emma is always supportive. Emma, Emma, Emma.

People ask if I'm too obessed with Emma. I am, but I don't care. I need a constant in my life. Emma makes me forget the things I don't won't to remember. People never asked me why I always whined about being alone in the holidays. It's because when I'm alone the things I don't want to think about drive me insane. Sometimes when I remember them at night I scream into my pillow. But with Emma, I dream silly things and can laugh and smile. She's not like my other best friends who kept me for awhile and then dumped me for a better offer. "sorry simone, you're not my best friend." "you're too immature." "we've grown apart."- with Emma, I know even if we're on seperate planets we'll always have this connection.

I'm not saying we're perfect friends. We have differences. She can't stand true blood and the accents, and i watch it with glazed eyes because I love true blood and have Anna Paquin on a pedastal. I'm blind to her bad accent. And she loves........... not running and I love .... aw crap I love everything she loves. But that makes her perfect. But with her I don't have to hate everything she hates. With all my other friends I had to like what they liked and hate what they hate.

Which brings me back to my point. Right now I'm going insane again and thinking of Emma I forgot why. Which is cool. I'm not saying I don't have other good friends but Emma is the one I see almost every day and she's my best friend. Cool right?

Great weekend-ish. Saturday was good, Friday had it's moment but Sunday, well actually it got better. Friday was children in Need which was cancellled for awhile but then went along as planned. I felt bad because it was cancelled for the other site meaning Melissa didn't get her cake so the little tyrant was pissed at me. We fought alot on Friday which was actually fun until the alien spat on me. To be fair I scared the crap out of her by hiding on the stairs. It took her five seconds to react and scream. Most delayed reaction ever. ANyway, I went to sleep at ten, was awoken at eleven to do the dishes and then went back to sleep at one in the bloody morninig. My mother does not understand the concept of insomnia. Or sleep paralysis.

Saturday went great, The combination of New Moon and infinite chinese food really makes a good day. Even the rain couldn't upset me. And believe me the rain did try. The dinner was weird, good weird, because of the multiple partner exchange. One moment is was a lesbain couple and a straight couple, then a threesome and a guy, then a guy and his girlfriend with her girlfriend and her bitch. Total foursome moment. Awesome!

Sunday sucked and it wasn't the church part that sucked, that was okay. It was the dragon lady, or mommy as we so fondly call her, who was in a bad mood and had a menacing throbbing vein that looked like it wanted to kill me. I was frightened and spent the day doing film coursework. 2,500 words- a little too long. Anyway that's it.

Note to Emma: Wuv you dude. But school isn't that bad. Still come back!

...or more friends. Either way I think it's kinda pathetic that when Emma isn't here time stands still and the school day drags on like there is no tommorow. (Btw if you're reading this Emma, shame on you.) I'm seriously bored and the anti-social thing has been raised to 'come near me and you die'. I don't know, evrything about everyone is really annoying me. And I'm really sleepy. Ok just two lessons which is easy enough to get through and then to drag myself through to private studies. No problem, right? Wrong. There's still all the breaks in between. And my mp3 player isn't fully charged so I don't or can't use that. Yeah, there are worse problems in life but you must understand that the longer Emma and I are apart, the sooner the world implodes. And now even writing seems boring...well typing but whatever.

GYM = Pain! Immense agonising pain!

My joints are stiff and apparently I've learnt that I'm fit but weak. Oh and my mother has said I have the arms of an anorexic. Nice. Let's get rid of gyms and make more ice-cream parlours.

So we're driving back from school after fetching the munchkin. And I scream 'Emma' cause I see her right? And then we're near home when the car is stopped and my stepfather tells me to get and go see Emma. I was like no, but then they locked the car doors. Then I stalked off to find Emma and saw her with Luke on the other side of the road but I felt really embarrassed so i turn to walk home. Then I kick myself mentally and go back but saw no sign of Emma. It was like she dissapeared. So I felt embarrased as people were staring so I run to Kaiping and pretned I was looking for her. And it was fun because we caught up and spoke and all that. Then it was awkard once we were done talking so I run home and threaten my stepfather and the munchkin with disembowelment.

Oh yea it's time for a rant! I don't even know why i'm angry, ok i know why i just don't know why... whatever point is some bloody sod sends me a flame on fanfiction, and usuallly i accept flames but this perticular idiot sends it to me in a message and lists things that is wrong with my story. But like things that don't give critsim. Wait, thats not how you spell... nevermind. Point being firstly in fanfics you review and when flaming you critise about grammer, plot and charecter deleopmeant, but sending me crap in a personal message about how the pairing in the story and the two main charaters don't conencide...don't go together (better?). Just because i chose a certain two people for my main characters doens't mean they will be together. It just means they're the charaters. I can't even spell now i'm so pissed. Then the person says they didn't like a line in they story. Why the fuck would i care? Tell me that in a review don't personal message me. Does this person like the plot, i don't know, the stroyline and structure, i don't know all i know is they want the main cahracters to hook up immediately, screw the plot, and me to remove a certain line. Ok, deep breath. See? Stupid. I'm getting worked up for nothing but i just usually prefer personal messeages to contain practical stuff.

God I'm bored and need to go out more. I also need a boyfriend but one problem at a time! So Emma if you're reading this and haven't run away from me in fear, are you and kita still going somewhere tommorow? Plans for the rest of the week?

My rant energy is gone so I'll wrap this up in saying Vote for me and my evil gerbils opposed to my sister and her evil hamsters. Yep, we're your only options. We're both bent on world domination and when we succeed one shall be master and the other second in command. Personally I would make every friday ice-cream day.

I've reached my peek or climax or.... blech! I'm bored and it's been like what? Four days since I offically finsihed school. What! I don't feel like spelling. I bored and my brain has gone very fuzzy. I crave company! Only company I have is my stepfather who is sleeping most of the day and at night i have my mother. Or the dragon as I so fondly call her. Then theres Chav-e-lina. My dear sister. WHo annoys me to a point of insanity. I walk around the house dragging my teddy shamelessly around like a five year old. Sapphire keeps me company. Yes dammit! My teddy has a name. I had a teddy named Charles Reginald the 3rd once. And then there was Simba. Oooh and then there was Miffy! Miffy was a black bunny I found on the street when I was nine and after I took a bath with her (yes i'm that crazy) i found out she was white. I passed her on to my cousin when i turned thirteen. That's when charles came into my life. My dear Charlie. Crap guess what! I'm actually watching the news. Shoot me now! Somedays I don't even change out of my pj's. Huh? Yes I wash! But I just change back into my frilly blue pj's. Their so cute.  i'm even tempted to go with emma to school. HELP!

Two days. Maybe. Depends how long it takes me to starve. I'm paranoid and deathly afraid of most animals. I hate water so no chance of fishing. And I'm lazy. So no chance of me actually moving. SO I'd just run around like a crazy.

This world is nothing but shadow. Once you slip through the darkness, there is no returning to the light. The thirst will consume you. It will become your entire existance. Things are different now. Those who were once your enemies are now the only family you have. Turn to them, do not betray them. We created you and therefore we can take you apart just as easily.

We take what we want...do not see us as monsters, we ask for one thing. That we which we give you in return is a gift. Although there are those who would tell you it is a curse. Remember, you are alive, you are immortal. To an extent. It'll be hard at first, the thirst will be intense and you'll have no control. But as you satisfy yourself you'll become stronger. And then you'll learn control.

It's the darkness, it's stopping your heart. Do't worry young one, the pain will be quick. Embrace it, allow it to fill you. Close your eyes. When you awake we'll speak more. But remember, you are one of us. A blood faerie. There is no going back...

Word Vomit, you know... I was trying to write about George Orwell and this came to mind. Tsk, tsk. You and your magnificent idea's.

Starngely I've had two songs in my head and they seem to be conflicting each other, one moment one will be running through my head and the next the other one and sometimes simultanuously which made me spaz out in biology. People keep asking me if I'm listening, which I'm not I'm severely stuck in my own head.

Don't trust me- !3OH! vs Think twice- Eve 6

( Conflict of songs )
Ps, I blame my icon.

Last year I gave up my summer holidays and worked mon-fri, at a charity shop. From 8:30-17:00. I felt that I needed to do something for others out there. It was for a childrens charity. I also donate money to the salvation army.

There's quite a few but there's a book called Loving April although right now I can't remember the author but the book has always stuck with me. It's captivating and mesmorizing. I was even crying for some parts. It makes you release how hurtful the world can be and how important love is.

daydreams19- Truly great friend who actually got me on livejournal. Without her I'd be a lost soul without anything to do.